October 13, 2016 Reflections
Yesterday was a solemn day for me. My friend, Laura, went with me to Arlington National Cemetery to visit the gravesite of my beloved soldier boy.
Though he may have physically left my world October 12, 2013, Ed Fisher continues to have such an incredible presence and influence in my life! I suppose one doesn’t spend forty years with someone and not find that is the case. :):)
As I reflect on the past three years of learning to “live a robust and happy life for both of us”, I realize just how MUCH influence he continues to have. I “talked things over” with him that day in January 2015, so very uncertain about what my next step in life should be….and the very next day received that letter from the VA, reminding me that I have an educational benefit awaiting me as his caretaker widow. The story of my widow’s walk, drawn out, examined, and punctuated by the guidance and experiences at the University of the Arts, has inspired my art. I am certain that he would have been my biggest champion, but I know that I would not have explored this avenue of creativity in my life had he not left this earth. Even through his death, he continues to ensure my life is filled with joy.
I chuckle to myself when things happen that I just KNOW he had a hand in helping along from above! I miss those baby blue eyes and that devilish mustached smile, but will always feel his presence. With every wave of the US flag, I will always swell with pride, knowing what he did for our country. Every time I look at his children and grandchildren, I can feel the warmth of his beaming pride. And with every new day, I am thankful that he was and always will be a part of my heart.
And now, I must explore the next phase of life after Ed…..